Insouciance.Doped.The.Cat.

2010-06-26T02:44:00.002+08:00

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2010-06-24T22:30:00.003+08:00

奶奶的。操你妈的。

明明好好高高兴兴地带着刚买的衣服回家想分享一下奢侈的幸福，给老子一进门就是一句，“什么破衣服！还有味道！又没牌子！还30块！你傻的哇！？”

这家里每天没轰得鸡飞狗跳鸡犬不宁的，还不都因为你他妈一张破嘴！搞不懂你到底以前受过什么打击留下那么大的阴影，每天疑心那么重。你知道吗，我真他妈同情你，因为你生活的世界实在太阴暗了。你就是被四面以疑心谨慎彷徨担忧恐惧所搭建的墙厚厚地包围着，被束缚在黑暗丑陋中，外面那美好安宁的世界就离你他妈一辈子地远。如果你不好好擦亮眼睛重新环顾周围景色，你身边的人也会一个一个远离你！再他妈亲的人，最终不是被你活活气死就是活活气走。你现在不反省，以后后悔都来不及！

我靠。老子踩牛粪了哇！？怎么就那么倒霉那么不幸福。怎么就和这个再怎么敲也敲不醒的人捆在一起。

他妈这个不说，给老子还自作主张接我电话。懂不懂什么是隐私啊！？你他妈那么崇拜美国，怎么不就学习人家尊重人权尊重隐私呐！？他妈活那么大岁数还不会看脸色哇？人都被你气跑了，还有脸接我电话！你非得把我惹毛了才甘愿哇？

我给你说，他妈不是看在外婆年级大经不起气，老子早跟你吵到大清早了，我他妈就不信不能把你说清醒。跟你说，再不克制，迟早有一天老子毛起会给你好好吵一架。他妈的就等那天让你反省。

我操。他妈的你不累我都累了。你不想看你女儿活过20哇！？我操。

他妈的什么友情爱情学业财经婚姻健康智商，我都愿意出问题，他妈的就不想看见亲情出问题。你就不可以给老子宁静一天哇？

我操。

淡定。

哦对了。那些没看过的。顺便给你们说一下，刘宓如他妈的就是那么vulgar。我操，火头上才懒得给你们一群人装逼。

我睡觉了。

2010-06-23T01:01:00.008+08:00

哇。好晚了。网络又那么的慢。还不是凌汤宝在那儿看视频偷网，害得我这儿这么慢。。。

嗯，今天来这儿呢，是想回顾一下刚才看得反派电影《烈日当空》。ok，先明说，我不擅长写影评，其实我都没写过，学校也没教。哦，不对，我写过，《红色樱桃》那部，老师还说很不错嘞。回正题，这部港片围绕着7个叛逆男生的生活。他们都来自Band 3，也就是差生啦。几个死党的手足情真的很感人。虽然感人，不过现实。过目不忘的是打架的那一幕，3个为了1个兄弟被扁得偏体鳞伤，另外3个则逃之夭夭。可以说是不够义气啦，不过在现实生活中是符合逻辑的，再怎么坚固的友情也敌不过本质自私的人性。坦白说，如果兄弟被打，你我任何一个人都很有可能是逃兵。理智地说，我想我肯定是的。

不过令我十分羡慕的，就是男生们大咧咧直戳戳的作风，不像女生们那么小气。就算朋友故意把录像流传出去，最多也不过是破口大骂一番，过往的就既往不咎，和好如初。

既然是反派，当然少不了吸毒，抽烟，殴打，偷窃，把妹（详细的就不说了），还有一些男生们很常做的龌龊的举止。== 额，现实现实，现实的片子，这不过分。可以说是艺术片吧。。。

每个男生都有不同的性格，背后也都有一个故事。该片被评为，”以跳脱幽默的手法，呈现年轻人向往灿烂青春却身陷残酷异境的成长故事”。

哎呀，不说了，我困了。睡觉了。

反正就是，挥霍青春，跌跌撞撞，迷惘，浑浑噩噩。肮脏但又纯洁。很美的一部

比那部《淼淼》的台湾片来得好看一百倍，那部真的不知在讲什么垃圾，不知是同性恋么还是单相思的。浪费我45分钟，幸好快进地看。

哦，还有，最近在读一本关于非洲艾滋孤儿的非小说文学。很不错。讲关于以为失去了丈夫和女儿的妇女如何从一副狼藉中重找自我，开始养育40多个孤儿。伟大啊。很感人。还贯穿了孤儿们背后无人知晓的故事。还有关于艾滋的资料。我现在才晓得，原来艾滋的传播始于5个同性恋！！哇塞。震撼。看嘛，违背自然规律的惩罚。哈哈。

突然发现哦，王力宏的《落叶归根》很好听耶。

男主角很帅哦！！

第一个叫头抽，当然是头头啦。外表强悍，其实内心脆弱，是个胆小鬼，怕血，是逃兵。
第二个是个书呆子，一天到晚补习。是个芭蕾舞者，好不般配哦。梦想是KO中五毕业考试，可是因为打架伤亡。青春中破碎的梦啊。
第三个是头抽的前女友。爱慕虚荣，所以去做妓女了。头抽如此爱她，唉。。。悲啊。
第四个lolita，不过真的演员太丑没办法。因为艳照被传出，所以因辱而自杀。
第五个是主人翁，荣少。来自单亲家庭。和父亲关系不好，但是还是爱他爸的，最后来了个大陆的继母，也是爱他的。艺术天赋，最后进了艺术学院。
第六个就是把妹的，艳照的那个。最后还是和女友和好。
第七个很可爱啊。胖胖的，脾气好。穷，晚上挖贝壳打工，梦想是挖到珍珠。最好实现了。呵呵。
第八个叫笠。富裕。吸毒。逃兵。差点因吸毒丢命，最后救过来了，握着妈妈的手。家庭的温暖。
第九个，同性恋。和那个书呆子感情最好，不过好像不是那种关系呐。最后当然心痛惨了。

完毕。睡觉！

dismantle repair

2010-06-21T20:45:00.005+08:00

Ok, I'm here to rant. So, for people who don't like ranting bitches, there's always the close button at the top right hand corner for you.

Yes, I'm damn pissed.

For SAP, Ms Tong wants me to draw a pig wrapped in red specks. Like in Photoshop, you have 2 layers, with the pig layer being transparent and the red specks hard. WTS, that's no possible. I know it's from good intention, but she totally overestimated my ability. I can't draw it la, she asked me to do a trial version. After drawing the snout, I looked at the drawing, walao, looks sickly like some lepers pig. Argh, fuck, my drawing sucks. And my frame 3 is getting worse, not like the previous 3 frames I did.

And Math.

DIFFERENTIATION SHOULD JUST GO TO BURNING HELL.

Screw the Math department. The revision practices they gave include integration, WTF. We didn't even learn that la, then I was stuck for 3 bloody hours!? Damn demoralising la. I didn't even know it was integration until Crystal told me. Fuck la, I thought I was just dumb ok.

Shithole. I'm damn pissed today. I ignored basically everyone who tried MSNing or QQing me.

FUCK LA, my mother videoing me, WHAT SHIT LA. Is she some social retard or what, cannot see I'm fuming is it. FUCK. Ok, I just pointed my middle finger at the camera. HAHA.

Anyway, yes, I'm pissing everyone off in my family too. Because whenever they talk to me, I just told them to shut up. FUCK LA. I know it's not right la, but I can't help it man, I can't control. WHAT THE FUCK.

And then, tomorrow it's Social Studies revision. WTF. Revision non-stop sia. What fucking holidays are these sia. I didn't even go out and play la. WTF.

WALAO, is there any other word that encompass my rage? Besides FUCKing all day long, is there any other word that overweighs this "epitome of english swear words"?

FUCK.

I'm off to MATH.

AGAIN.

FML = Fail Math La.

The meek shall inherit the Earth after we're done with it. - Anonymous

2010-06-19T00:59:00.002+08:00

Hey sugar, who will pull you out of this whirlpool of life?

Tracing tracing, tracing the shadows of your past.

Shit la. My holidays are damn crap. After coming back from Shanghai, all my free time is basically chopped by SAP la. And left one week to mug, I still have Chem PT and revision to settle sia. OMG my life is screwed.

I HATE RGS. SHIT SCHOOL.

I don't feel like sleeping man, so scared of tomorrow to come. That will mean FPS and Bboy and one very important event, which I'm not gonna say yet.... not till I get a definite answer. Gosh, I hope it's not something shit la. And I hope I can get in.

Anyway, downloading Meet The Fockers now. Damn slow. 2 hours plus. Aiya, actually I still love Chinese websites man, can download stuff to watch without signing up for bullshit like DivX or Hotbar or some shit out there to cheat your money. Damn troublesome la, I googled the movie for like 1 hour plus to futility, and within 20 minutes I get my download from Baidu. So ironic, everybody saying that Chinese network is very constricted, but lookie here, which one's the more practical and useful one? Ok, 29.2%..... tomorrow night I'll be able to watch it. Damn funny la. Out in 2004 and I'm watching it now.

Oh, Celtics lost. And KB's the MVP. Please, he played so shit in game 7. But still, aiya, he deserved it la. But he'll never match up to MJ who's got a 6-0 win in Finals and an average of 33 points. Oh well, gotta try harder boys. And Phil Jackson can go home to contemplate on how to wear his 11th ring.

Shit, gotta sleep.... I hate sleeping. I hope holidays are longer.....

Nobody but yourself....

spell t.e.am.

2010-06-16T11:48:00.004+08:00

Ok. So today, I'm really in a bad mood, because of 4 reasons, 1 being purely retarded.

Let's start with the retarded one:

I hate my hair. Ha, so long since I've complained about it. But now I suddenly came to the revelation that my fringe is really disgusting and there are long stray strands draping everywhere, which smart my eyes, resulting in my inability to concentrate on the bloody match. Can't wait for it to grow long so I can tie everything up!

Talking about the bloody match:

Yes, Celtics lost this time round. I have to admit the team isn't as good as Lakers, thus their erratic performance. Game 6 is akin to Game 1, which I freaking missed out. But Game 6 is really so badly played. At the end of the first quarter, Celtics was already lagging by 10 points. And I immediately knew Game 6 is a goner.
I don't know why, I mean I'm not a good game analyst, but it seems Celtics has lost their accuracy, rebounds and their killer-will. And even Doc Rivers gave up, letting all the bench players onto the court in the last quarter. I don't agree with his decision, because it just shows that he has given up on the game which is not what a professional sportsman will commit to. And yet again, talking about commercialising everything nowadays, he has to let bench players out. This time round Celtics literally got trashed, by 20+ points, ending up with a total of 69 points ONLY.
Obviously Perkins' importance to the team was underestimated, I never thought he was so crucial to Celtics. The other centres, Wallace and Davis, can't match up to him, evident from the plummeting rebound rates. Though Wallace is good at defense, but his accuracy and game sense are really.... harrowing. Davis can be entertaining to watch, but still, his performance fluctuates.
Robinson can be powerful, but his height is undesirable and street basketball is afterall a different domain. Ok, there's a few other benchies, one who played with Bulls for the championships, but I forgot their names.
Rondo didn't play that well too, not a lot of steals which are his niche. Sigh. And Pierce was too solo, he must control his urge to hog the ball. Garnett was alright, ah.... my fave. Ray Allen played to optimal standards too. But it's really dangerous with Perkins injured at this deciding moment.
SHIT.
Celtics need to find back their will and confidence man. I know it's they are playing guest, but no matter how vociferous the Lakers' cheers and applause are, you know all your supporters, be it in front of the computer or TV, have got your back babe. We're gonna win this and take it to big 18.

And the stupid Taiwanese commentators (not being racist):

WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH YOUR BRAINLESS COMMENTATING!?
　　“两分球！不进！再来！又不进！哈哈哈！”　拜托，哪个解说员这样解说的啊？你这样叙述，是不是怀疑球迷智商太低，大脑无法分析处理进入眼帘的画面啊！？求求仁兄给点解释好不。。。而且笑声也够诡异的了。哪个解说员会讲到一半突然咧嘴大笑起来！？
　 “打锁了！大锁了！”　这个。。。我无语了。听了半天，以为是什么专业名词自己听不懂，搞了半天原来是解说员发音不标准。恳请您先会老乡好好学国语在上电视好不。打手啦！！！什么打锁。。。。我靠。
　　“隆多把球踢飞了。如果是Nash会踢得更好哦！”　不好笑好不。。。 == 除了这些脑残的冷笑话，能提供一些更高明的见解吗？讲那么多低智商的评语，真的很不必要，而且影响我专心看球赛嘞。
还有，最恶心的，Paul Gasol 可以说成 Paul Pierce。本来就要贫血了，再吐几下，恐怕活不过二十了。垃圾解说员，回家洗了睡吧，少在这儿丢人现眼。再这样说下去，我宁愿放静音了！

And the last one, the most important one:

It's really been a long time since I appeared offline. Such pretense. All forced by you and you and you! But seriously, DO YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT'S THE MEANING OF A TEAM!? You don't support a team because of ONE player, you support a team because of every one member on the team! When people ask you why do you like Lakers, you don't go blabbering about how great Kobe Bryant is! He's good, but he's not the entire team! OMG. Ya, Kobe Kobe Kobe, but do you know how much efforts Gasol, Bynum, Artest, Fisher and the rest put in too? Do you even know about their existence in the first place? You guys are seriously such faggots. And true fans don't go around objurgating opposing teams! Disgraceful shitbags.

Ok, enough of ranting. Later still need to go out and earn money. Yay~! And tomorrow will be all day long SAPing. I am really starting to love art.

breaking and bruising

2010-06-13T00:55:00.003+08:00

Yes. So today I went for my first lesson for Bboy 2.

WHICH SUCKS TO THE CORE.

Because apparently, a lot people in that course retook the course so they are not the new batch, which implies that course 2 is gonna be very hard, which is proven. =="

The first thing he asked us to do is footwork and everybody did it like second instinct. WTH. So you can see these spidery tangle of legs shuffling on the floor. Then HANDSTAND. The best. All the guys knew it. And it's not pure headstand. IT'S HANDSTAND PLUS WALKING. Omg. So while the guys were prancing with their hands, the girls (four of us, luckily we knew one another) were trying to get up and balance with our hands which was pathetic. And we had to tuck in our shirts which made us even more toot. Then a routine. WHICH IS COOL, although I couldn't catch for like half of it. LOL. But now I know la of course. It's damn cool la, I think if I mastered this routine I can go show off already. HAHA. =="

And it's so nice to be popping again. Really happy to go open class and see Ben teaching. Ah, popping is so awesome... really love it.

Ok, so came back. Lingling also came back from Shanghai.

Anyway, watched 画皮. I know I'm damn outdated. But ya, that was my first time. LOL. Very touching!!!!! Talks about 爱的真谛. Watched with my mum, who's damn lag, she doesn't even understand the plot. Can't stand her...... Was really touching. At first everyone was biased against 小唯because of the demonish stereotype. But then later on you kinda realise demons have feelings too. So it makes the characters whole. Aiya whatever la, just that it's damn nice. And it's intertwined, the love.

OH GOD. Damn nice.

You can be young without money, but you can't be old without it. - Anonymous

家

2010-06-08T19:59:00.007+08:00

黄山

世博

新加坡馆

英国馆

市区

昨天才从上海回来。早上5.30抵达。当然，睡了下又马上起来看NBA。凯尔特人赢了，高兴惨了。

好，说主要的。

回到厕所有门，有抽水马桶，有纸的地方。
回到没有垃圾和痰液的地方。
回到没有烟雾缭绕的地方。
回到优质服务的地方。
回到高楼林立的地方。
回到奉公守法的地方。
回到讲英语的地方。
回到有快餐的地方。
回到酷热的地方。
回到文明。
回到家了。

离开食物香辣浓油的地方。
离开物品实惠的地方。
离开路边小吃的地方。
离开帅哥济济的地方。
离开高山野林的地方。
离开讲华语的地方。
离开亲切感。
离开自由。
离开家了。

唉。感慨啊。很多同学一路都一直埋怨个不停。我就觉得，你这样还不如呆在新加坡不懂算了，还出个屁的国啊。其实不是中国不好，是新加坡条件太好了。中国国家土地那么大，一个党就那么几个人，就算有问题也要通过一层层的检鉴批准，所以乱一点也是肯定的。这两个国家没法比嘛。就是觉得有些人的态度令我挺恶心的。井底之蛙。啊，对了。我们导游会说四川话。第一次听他说是我都愣了一下，除了吴笛他家还有我们，就再也没听到一个活生生的人说过四川话了。有点感动啊~~~

哦。还有。今天一天都在学校画画。早上10点到下午6点。整个美术室只有我一人。非宁静无以致远，哈哈。真的画的不错，画我妈，我自己都惊讶。才完成了一张，还有七张。唉。

“漂亮。”“谢谢。” 哈哈哈！

别在我的坟前哭。脏了我轮回的路。 - 猫扑

❤凯尔特人❤

2010-05-30T12:32:00.002+08:00

一年一度的NBA决赛又到了。虽然今年太忙了，没跟，但是决赛还是不能错过！凯尔特对湖人！跟两年前一样的情景。。。。希望结果也是一样的。呵呵。

算了算。。。去了上海的话会错过前两场，所以就要靠老爸和朋友来向我汇报了！这次重任暂时交给王国力小朋友，不过。。。。看来也不可靠 ==。手机一天到晚没钱。特别兴奋啊！！！好不容易又轮到凯尔特进决赛了！复活吧，燃烧吧，绿衫巨人们~~~！为了做准备，在临走前先得把我的绿衫衫儿挂在窗户边，谆谆嘱咐老妈不可拿下。这次去上海唯一放心不下的就是老妈手犯病，一拿下，就没戏唱了。。。。。虽然是迷信，不过。。。。不怕一万只怕万一嘛。。。

真的是每晚祈祷凯尔特人凯旋归来啊。

ok，然后就是。。。明天早上一抵达就得代表学校和校长还有其他几个学长去上海市第三女中。郁闷，其他人都戴个牌牌儿，唯有我是个白丁。。。不过还是看在我懂双语的份上，不得不把我叫去。额，今天才晓得是女校。真是无语。。。。看不到帅哥了。。。。唉。。。哈哈哈哈。迫不及待啊~~ 今晚就走了。。。。

拜了。吃饭了。6月3号第一场。。。。兴奋。

❤❤❤❤凯尔特人加油！❤❤❤❤

生活真他妈的像超级女声，走到最后的都是纯爷们儿。- 猫扑

人仰马翻

2010-05-29T13:40:00.002+08:00

好。最近没什么新鲜事儿。放假了。GPA 3.83。希望是全部第二。去了IB, 不错，死都要进去。昨天东海岸疯了一天。爽。凯尔特人进决赛了。厉害。差不多就这些。

现在在猫扑看到一则贴，特别爆笑。以下：

《这才叫文艺，这才叫装逼，这才叫玩弄文字，这才叫调戏文字》

普通说法：我看向你
文艺一点的说法：我痴傻的心情以最温柔的波段荡漾向你
文艺到闹心的说法：再厚的镜片也无法过滤我痴傻的心情，它正以最温柔的波段荡漾向你
文艺到闹心且骗稿费的说法：再厚的镜片也无法过滤我痴傻的心情，它正以最温柔的波段，不可遏止，层峦叠嶂，抵死暗哑着歇斯底里的本状，如迷你版的钱塘江潮，把我心底印度洋的海啸，荡漾向如马尔代夫般不似人间的你。

普通说法：赖床
文艺一点的说法：给我一秒钟，唤醒沉睡的灵魂
文艺到闹心的说法：当我的灵魂因这世间的寂寞和浮华而疲惫而沉睡，我只是需要时间，轻轻的等待它的苏醒。
文艺到闹心且骗稿费的说法：当我用颤抖的睫毛让周围的空气开始跳动，我的皮肤开始舒展，感受每一滴阳光的溶解；我的灵魂从遥远的阿尔卑斯的雪中苏醒，再给这世界一秒钟，静止。

普通说法：剥桔子吃
文艺一点的说法：指尖的暖色转为冰凉
文艺到闹心的说法：为何手指伸入到这橘黄暖色中，触碰到的却是冰凉的脉络。
文艺到闹心且骗稿费的说法：看着这片温润的橘黄暖色，只是小心翼翼地用手指伸入其中，我触碰到冰冷的脉络。我明白，这是一段来自某棵树枝头的悲伤。水雾、乌云、红日抑或雷霆，它默默地站在田野中哭泣了整整三季。如今，凝结成眼泪落入我的手中。有时候看似温暖的东西却冰凉彻骨，但是为了心中的宁静，却不得不残忍地逼迫自己面对他。我定了定心神，用力撕开这层面具。霎时间，香雾如血，弥漫在我指间，我彷佛听见真诚而竭力的哀号，从那遥远的古代战场传来。这世界，只要有人存在，本来就不会安宁，我早应该知道的。橘子，你只是生长了一年，我已经生长了二十三年，人世间的喜怒哀乐，难道你见得可有我多？你可知道快乐王子和燕子是如何倒下？一个纯粹的善良的人，在自己洪水般的悲伤和怜悯中苦苦搏击，心从来就是碎的，而这一切永远不会现于史诗当中。要不然，你同我的心交换吧？把我的碎心，去填补那些伤心的人。一瓣橘子塞入口中，一滴眼泪滴在被抛弃的橘皮上。

普通说法：吸烟
文艺一点的说法：空气中弥漫着尼古丁
文艺到闹心的说法：手中的星星之火不断释放着尼古丁弥漫到空气中
文艺到闹心且骗稿费的说法：手中的星星之火灼伤了我那颗弥漫着尼古丁的残心。也弥漫在那原本就扭曲的世界里。

普通说法：自恋
文艺一点的说法：我吻向了水中的倒影
文艺到闹心的说法：被爱恋的箭眷顾的我凝视着那犹如石膏像一般完美的水中倒影，吻向了虚幻却又实在的另外一个我的分身
文艺到闹心且骗稿费的说法：详见希腊神话里面纳克索斯的故事

普通说法：这贴真搞笑
文艺一点的说法：这贴太有喜感了。
文艺到闹心的说法：此贴在我看完后，触动了身体的每一个快乐的神经和细胞，让我不经意笑出声音。
文艺到闹心且骗稿费的说法：当我看完这个贴子的所有楼层，我心里一阵欢乐的波澜起伏不断。没有想到我还会笑，我还能笑出声音。我轻轻地问着自己，我真的快乐吗？还是这仅仅只是忧伤的伪装。我为什么会笑得如此灿烂，是因为这个贴子的文字？还是这个楼层所营造出来的欢乐的氛围？我不知道，我真的不知道，也不想知道。我真的累了。在我走过的这二十年的岁月中，我的人生到底还剩下多少快乐的青春？它们永不复返地逝去，只剩我一个人停在原地。坐在冷冰冰的电脑前，看着这个贴子。幸好，我还会笑，我还可以灿烂而明媚的生活。谢谢你们，这贴里带给我快乐的男孩女孩们。谢谢。真的。

普通说法：忘不了一人
文艺一点：那个人一直不曾从我的心里离去，魂牵梦萦
文艺到闹心：
他的视线
在遥远的天边
不肯
对近旁的我
稍作流连

文艺到闹心且骗稿费：我忧伤地站在那幢楼宇早上六点钟巨大的阴影里，看着那个金色短发的身影，被太阳镶上一道金边。啊他转过头看了我一眼，只一眼，就让我的心瞬间沦陷。我跟他就这样，一个在阴影中，一个在阳光下，对峙成太极那样的永远。

普通说法：上大号
文艺一点的说法：就让我排出那寂寞
文艺到闹心的说法：这充满离愁别绪的小仪式另人纠结，时而撕心裂肺，时而欢愉有佳
文艺到闹心切骗稿费的说法：何必在意孰是孰非，试问世间谁人抗拒，再见了我的新陈代谢。它们的离去，是大肠的不挽留，还是马桶的追求。

哈哈。好久没这样笑了。

2010-05-22T20:11:00.003+08:00

YAY. All exams are over. My GPA will tentatively be 3.77, and my first 4.0 for English, it's quite ok la, third in class if I'm not wrong. I think as your marks get higher, the more unsatisfied you become and your hunger for even higher marks intensify. Ya, kinda sian since I didn't get second in class... But anyway I flunked so many exams, was actually quite a miracle. And I heard people in other classes also did damn well, so 3.77 isn't high at all. Shit.

Today went for cheerleading with the cheerleaders from 8am to 4pm. Learnt so much about dance from Rachel! She's really good man, very professional. I'm still trying to master the splits which is .... materializing at an excruciatingly slow pace. And I was amused at my own popping. Came so far from knowing nothing to actually knowing something, and I can choreo! Woo. And today was RGS Open House. Very few people came, OH MY I WONDER WHY~ The house cheers thingy was really screwed, at least if I were a parent I won't be pleased to see the captains on the stage fooling around. Was really..... informal.

Hm. Can't wait for Sports Fest and ACSI (IB) Open House. I NEED TO GET INTO IB.

Ok, off to do my Philosophy PT. It's really like constipation - you produce crap very slowly.

If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular? - Anonymous

Rotting away

2010-05-16T10:44:00.006+08:00

SHIT. Wednesday is my french controle. SHIT.

Ok, I don't feel like studying now until 11am. And I'm in a lousy mood I don't know why.

Eh, so yesterday was quite alright. Very tiring. Early in the morning must get up damn bloody early to go house practice. OMG HOUSE PRAC, such a sec 1 thing la please. Then went to Huijie's cool Caribbean Condo to do FPS with Yoke and Dawn. Damn funny. Yoke and I were total slackers la, we only used our brains to think up of problems and all the hardcore writing were left to Dawn and Huijie. Then we camwhored with her photobooth. LOL. Dream team totally...

Then immediately chiong-ed to Kallang with Guoli. The food at the hawker was DAMN GROSS, I bet my instant noodles can be better than that la! Then went to Dunman to watch Kaixin and Jennifer's production with Yuguang and Ziren. Was two extremes. Nice ones were damn nice, lame ones were damn boring. The crosstalks were the best, 双簧and 不能说的秘密. And I managed to hide from everyone whom I didn't want to see. Sian. But I saw Ruowei in her red hood! HAHA. So cute. Eh ya. Whatever.

Then went to some barbecue shop. Then everone was talking about how their parents and grandparents were teaching them stuff when they were young. I totally couldn't chip in la, I can't even remember anything from my childhood. Seems like everyone in my house was busy staking cash away in their bank to go overseas. And I wasn't living with my parents at all. And Grandma isn't really the teaching type. The more and more I hang out with these guys, the more I realised what a deprived and sad childhood I had. Ya. Don't know if hanging out with them made me happier or what. I mean, it's a good thing to listen and find out about what a NORMAL childhood should be, but then again, it's quite sad when all you do is to be a bystander and laugh like a retard. Oh then at the hawker Guoli talked about how his family must all eat at the same time everyday. Might be a negligible event to most people since they do that ALL THE TIME. But, whatever. What can I say. The situation is really quite sad la. People in my house don't really do that, everybody is so tight with their schedule and can't afford to wait for anybody else. That may have resulted in my .... erm .... awkwardness when conversing in Chinese since I don't even get to talk a lot at home! At least now I am more comfortable in speaking out in English, but I still direly need Chinese speech skills. I think I just suck la. At least I am able to make lame jokes in English while talking, but in Chinese I am literally mute. Then I remember after the show he also said something about how his father taught him 素描. Ok, the point is not that he can draw damn well or what, just that it makes me feel sad la. Really a pity. MY CHILDHOOD SHOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE THAT TOO. AND WHY DIDN'T IT. I think sometimes listening to him really made me reflect and think back. And it is depressing.

Haha I feel like crying. WHAT THE FUCK.

Maybe everbody in my house is but nuts.

ANYWAY. Stuffed like hell. Somemore in the end must rush for the last train. Was surprised I didn't puke. On the MRT I didn't bother talking to Guoli. Just felt damn low and might just bore him to sleep. Anyway I think he used up all his hyper-ness and high-ness already. Basically I just emo-ed in one corner and slept. AWKWARD MUCH.

Damn sian la my life.

Argh.

Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go. - Oscar Wilde

2010-05-12T21:39:00.003+08:00

Ok. My life has been shit lately.

I'm living in this whirlpool of phantasmagoric shitpile.

Homework homework homework. But recently I found leisure in this twig-in-the-forest singer called 郭顶. His songs are surprisingly nice, erm... 3 of his songs? 幸运大门, 我们俩, 不是说好的吗. Especially the first one, I've been listening to like 10 plus times and it still can preserve its freshness. I think my life's just sad la.

Then I finished this AWESOME book called VOODOO HEART by Scott Snyder, and ever since I've been promoting it to almost everybody. DAMN NICE. Thin membrane between whimsical and ridiculous. Especially the first story Blue Yodel of a guy chasing his girlfriend who escaped in a silver blimp, and the last story The Star Attraction of 1919 of a runaway bride who escaped with a freelance pilot. OMG. SO COOL. This is one of those books that make you smile to yourself after reading it.

Today I found another book, a chinese one called 一座城池 by 韩寒. Er.... damn hilarious la, I was reading it on the MRT today. And I had to stifle my laughter till my lungs almost ruptured. And I was so engrossed I went all the way to Marina Bay please.... ==" But the plot is a bit the messy, and I still don't get the main idea of the book, besides 3 university graduates living an aimless carefree life.

Shit la. Tomorrow still got Bio SPA and GA3. And I haven't even started revising for GA3. But it's damn easy la I bet. Argh, SPA is my last desperate attempt to scrape a GPA3.6 oh god please be nice. And tomorrow's got SAP, that's comforting. And I did super well for Geog, got 18/20. I thought I failed. Damn happy. Uh.... Friday chiong FPS, for the sake of Huijie's retarded dream of going to USA. ==" Haha. I'm neutral la actually. Then Saturday go Dunman. SHITBAGS. Not looking forward to it AT ALL. So many people I don't want to see. Then the whole weekend must chiong French. And Monday I'll improvise for English Oral. Crapping only mah, my niche.

Ok, peace out. Gotta go mug SPA.

PS: 虽然我不擅长说这些肉麻的话，但是我只想说；“凤月你醒醒好吗。你这样子我看着都心痛。我呸，他个懦夫根本配不上你。现在最重要的是用功读书。以后的路还很漫长。你要轻重分明。”

I'd much rather be a woman than a man. Women can cry, they can wear cute clothes, and they are the first to be rescued off of sinking ships. - Gilda Radner

I'm done with you Shitbags!

2010-05-08T17:42:00.005+08:00

Yay. Now I can finally sooth out the tension in my mind. Yesterday was the worst day of my life. I had only 4 hours of sleep, the most deprived night of my entire life from man made disaster. Because I had to chiong my SAP prep studies! OMG, what a retarded reason to miss sleep la!

HUMANS ARE THE MOST RETARDED THINGS EVER. THEY ARE THE ONLY BEINGS THAT WILL MISS SLEEP INTENTIONALLY! WTF.

And to add on to my pitiful state, I had to run 2.4km in the afternoon. Luckily there wasn't any sun or I would have been roasted to my very bone. Or faint from heatstroke. Or people beside me would faint from heatstroke and I'll have to pick them up and then I'll have to retake the damn 2.4km. Yes, so god was playing nice.

AND I RAN 13:10! OMGOMG! EVEN BETTER THAN LAST YEAR! And this year I didn't even train at all la please. Seems that efforts don't justify the end. AND I GOT FULL MARKS THIS YEAR!!! WOOOO~~~!!! And Andrea passed too. So proud of that bum. Everyone was cheering for me la, since different classes sat at different portions of the track and every portion sure had someone to yell "GO MIRU!". So to save face, it was really hard to find a quiet place to walk during the run, which was one crucial factor why I obtained an A. Aw... my friends are so sweet.

Then after that, immediately went home to bathe and chiong-ed all the way to Singapore Spring for the YMCA presentation. Wah, the prizes were quite lavish, with like 3 bloody dictionaries!? Damn heavy. And there was a rather liberal buffet. All I attacked were the puddings. Had 5 cups. Oh, and the cert. WOO~~~

WAS SO SHOCKED I ACTUALLY GOT SILVER!!

And then at night fooled around on the computer till 12 and woke at 6am. WTF. For house practice... sigh. Then cheerleading. And came home and realised I'm down with a burning fever. JUST MY LUCK.

Ok, CIAO.

LOVE MY FRIENDS!

Life is too short to blend in. - Lady Gaga

what certificate?

2010-05-03T12:04:00.002+08:00

Ok. So this post is gonna be very sad.

Yesterday at midnight, my friend suddenly q-ed me saying that his parents were quarreling and some violence was involved. And somebody's hand got bruised, I think was his mum's. And he was really scared. Basically, he just evinced desperation and fear. Then he complained about his bad luck.

And there was this one phrase which really struck me:
“你觉得单亲可怕吗？”

I think it kinda stumped me. This wasn't unfamiliar to me, but ya, I won't say it's scary, but it will definitely influence your perceptions of marriage and love. And I think it won't be perpetual, but it won't be ephemeral either. Like suspended dirt, it will settle after some time.

Oh well, I think that's 21st century for you, boy.

The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it. - Anonymous

MONGA

2010-05-01T22:22:00.003+08:00

Today went to watch MONGA with Jolynn, Andrea, Yingxin and Selene.

WAS SO AWESOME.

Talks about brotherhood. And there's this ending statement that totally got etched indelibly in my brain:

“为什么要打打杀杀，明明是兄弟，却要毫无留情地干掉对方。如果这就是混黑道，那么我混的是友情。当我向你张开双臂的时候，你放下了抢，投向我怀里。你一直以为你混的是黑道，其实你跟我一样，混的也是友情。”

OMG, I really could feel the tears welling in my eyes, just that they didn't roll down. It was so cathartic ok! Mark Chao and Ethan Ruan are really THE SPICES. Damn hot. But ya, today, I'm gonna talk about the characters they play, not really themselves actually.

A GUY IS SO CUTE WHEN HE'S KNOWS HOW TO STAND UP FOR HIS BROS, like Ethan Ruan's character. Although he's bad la, but omg, he's just so hot. Him betraying the bosses and hugging Mark Chao in the end makes him a whole all-rounded character, not like the typical superhero movies, where the baddies are always tipping over to extremist. At least you still can see that he has basic human emotions. I think Ethan Ruan's character is really very sophisticated, oscillating between brotherhood, jealousy and hatred. Must be a really troubled soul. OMG, he's SO HOT. And the way he died was really sad. Erm... ya, I'm not really good at expressing my opinions on films.

But all in all, a masterpiece presented from the script writer and director, especially the first. Can't believe anyone can actually fit so many plots and stories into a mere 2-hour long film. Almost every character has a remarkable story behind them. Oh god, so nice. I can't wait for it to go online so I can watch again! Ah, such a long time since I craved to watch a film a SECOND time.

I WILL TOTALLY DIE TO MARRY SOMEONE LIKE ETHAN RUAN'S CHARACTER. I wonder if there's really such a perfect guy like him la!

AHH I'M IN LOVE~~~

Eh, ya, and anyway, I must learn 'O' from DBSK. Shit, the choreo is really hard with the accents. Ah, must not screw up man.

Believe nothing until it has been officially denied. - Anonymous

2010-04-27T20:54:00.002+08:00

这几天发生的事情实在是太多了。

头晕眼花的。

最近心情真的很差。事情又多，简直是火上加油。

家里发生了一些纠纷。还不是为了钱的事。好烦。现在发现好人不一定有好报，劝妈妈以后还是少管闲事，搞的成了僵局。情郁于中，自然要发之于外，遭殃的就是我们。真的真的很讨厌，为什么如此没有人情味。那一家人让我十分厌恶，有钱了不起啊，不会做人钱有个屁用。良心被狗吃了。不过现在心情好像好一点了。有些时候，真的真的希望家里能更富裕一点，肯定会减少许多不必要的麻烦和烦恼。所以，决定以后一定要发达起来。

而且，不知怎么的，我买了一副眼镜。白色的，厚框，又圆又大，很抢眼。吊。花了我250块，是妈妈付的，不过我当然必须还。不过我知道我真的很不懂事，在这个时刻突然要买眼镜，而且度数没有加深。可能就是很烦躁，所以想花钱消灾。

然后又有那个YMCA投票活动。折磨人。虽然领先着，但是要居安思危嘛。。。还在不断拉票。靠人气这种东西，刘宓如怎么可能输嘛~ 不管了，这个奖杯我要定了。再不行就要采取特殊手段，当然不是黑啦。

而且，今天过后，每天都要忙到很晚，明天有法语然后赶历史专题然后赶GA，后天体能五项然后美术，然后就。。。。。。gee gee gee gee lalalalalala. 哈哈。然后五一劳动放假看帅哥（艋舺），然后跳跳舞。哦对了，Rachel请我去跳拉拉队，真的很无语，我从不挑那种的，不过看在朋友和CIP和HOUSE的份上，还是去吧。反正别叫我穿裙子就行了。

熬过这个星期就好了。一切会好转的。

History Pt

2010-04-24T23:12:00.003+08:00

OMG. Today has been the most productive day EVER.

Ok, so in the morning, all the nutty gullible secondary fours went to school to attend this legendary Chemistry Olympiad which was TOTALLY ENRICHING because it taught us the importance of ponning events at the appropriate time. I tell you, the paper contains roughly 50 questions: 2 answers were confirmed correct, 20 answers were derived from simple brainless calculations which may be 70% wrong, 25 answers were left blank because I have no idea what is ethane, hydrocarbon, your whatever polygonal hexagonal whatevergonal, and I have no idea what the hell will be produced when you react soap with paint thinner or bleach with engine oil (I mean, c'mon, who will be retarded enough to sniff around while painting your walls or washing your clothes or filling up your car), and yes, the remaining 3 questions did not even receive any contemplations because with one glance at the one-paragraph long introduction, I basically skipped them. Doesn't deserve the sacrifice of my brain cells. The rest of the time were spent stoning and SMSing. Yes, I know I'm pro. Or whatever, you can disqualify me all you want if you see this, it really doesn't make a difference. Really.

Then once I reached home, I immediately start oogling at Mao Zedong's beautiful attractive face. Yes, I literally spent the rest of the day till now drawing him and this imaginary family for History PT which stands on the same pedestal of retardedness and irrelevance-to-my-life as the aforementioned chemistry competition. So far I'm 60% completed I guess. I am now so sick of Mao, I've been drawing him for SAP and now History. Seriously, he will haunt me for the rest of my life, enough to remind me of my chinese roots for eternity. Ah, tomorrow will be tutoring and then writing stupid chinese essays.

My life definitely sucks.

Oh PSPS, I've MASTERED the first part of the GEE dance!! Hia hia hia. And I am chosen to be the mascot during the cheers.... I can totally imagine myself being a tree... =="

Why get married and make one man miserable when I can stay single and make thousands miserable? - Carrie Snow

Why American Students Rule

2010-04-20T19:20:00.002+08:00

Ok. So I have decided that instead of ranting, I'll post something productive, which can lift all of us out of our predicament, at least spiritually.

Below is a translation of an article from FTChinese (took me much pains to translate man) :

The title is actually "美国大学生有多牛", and in English it actually talks about "Why American College students are outstanding (and that they trash Asian students although the latter score better)"

No matter how discouraging the marks are, American students forever think they are best; no matter how frivolous their suggestions seem, American students forever think they are the most important. This confidence stems from the American education system whereby strengths are exploited to maximum potential and weaknesses are neglected to minute attention. From young, parents and teachers compliment students that "they are the best" and even if it totally goes against the speaker's conscience, they will churn out the words "you are the most unique". Thus this gives rise to the belief that even if you suck or rock to the core, you are unique in your own sense. This "uniqueness" has become an attitude embraced by many American students.

From this system, American students are able to aptly recognize their areas of interest and talent once they enter college. To them, choosing a subject they like is more important than choosing one which is most beneficial and practical. They behold the value of "never do yourself injustice", which explicitly translates into their strong stand on self-expression and self-rights. If during an exam a student has issues with regards to the marks given, the most-used approach will be to argue "this is unfair to me".

On the other hand, to professors, a fair and open teaching environment is key. No teachers will ever ridicule a student no matter how stupid his questions sound, and no teachers will reject a question no matter how many times it has been repeated. This in a way has help students develop the courage and confidence to pursue their knowledge no matter how backwards they lag.

College education has never been a duo dance. Despite the importance of cooperation between students and professors, confidence, openness and courage are the most crucial indicators of success. However, this individualistic pattern has to be based on the foundation of mutual respect. While promoting oneself, one has to be aware of the feelings of the other party.

After reading the article, I kinda compared the education overseas with most Asian systems which is carried out in a much authoritarian style, whereby students must follow one distinct route to reach success, at least this is what the norm is. This deprives student of self-expression and will lead to the atrophy of free-thinking. To them, scoring well in tests and fulfilling ludicrous requirements are top priorities. What a farce for the true meaning of education.

美国的大学生无论考分如何低，都觉得自己是最好的；无论观点如何幼稚，都觉得自己是最重要的。大多数美国大学生在课堂上都自我感觉良好，特把自己当根葱。他们在班上当众发言可以侃侃而谈，面对校外的公众演讲也同样从容不迫。美国教育中似乎的确有一个魔幻环节，让学生们年纪轻轻，就怀有这样的自信和从容。

在我看来，美国教育的最亮点在于：它可以把一个学生的数理化都教得很差很差，却让这个学生相信自己画的画很像毕加索的。这个系统完全就是有预谋地忽略学生的缺点，同时拼命发掘和培养学生的优点。因此很多机关巧妙的鼓励教育被发明出来，但是却很少有像样的严厉的惩罚教育。从小到大，学生从家长和老师那里听到的都是：你是最棒的！（即使不是最棒的），你也是最独特的（这句话非常保险。就是运用最精密的科学计算，这句话也一点都不错）！所以在美国人心里，“与众不同”是一个很有腔势的褒义词。美国大学生做什么都显得自信满满，因为做的好做得差都十分独特，十分“与众不同。”

学生们毕业的时候，甚至有些在还没有大学毕业的时候，就大体能了解到自己擅长和喜欢做的事。大学的四年里，他们可以选不同专业的课、做不同的课外工作、通过实习来尝试到底什么最适合自己。大学教育的成功并不在于灌输了多少知识，而在于让学生有足够的机会了解和发现自己，并且建立更多的自信。学生选择专业与工作的一个十分重要的标准是看自己是否有兴趣。兴趣比赚多少来得重要。因为感觉自己是根葱，美国的大学生从来不在钱上面委屈自己。钱算什么东西？自己的兴趣和时间才最重要。有兴趣才有创造力，有创造力才能赚钱。虽然美国人以数学不好著称，这个公式却算得没错。

“不委屈自己”这样的信条不但体现在赚钱花钱上，也体现在读书生活的各个方面。在土生土长的美国学生里面，很少见到压抑的个性。所以虽然美国的外交政策在全世界都不那么讨好，美国人的阳光笑容还是自有它的一番感染力。美国学生只要是遭遇不平，一定不会默默忍受。即使个性安静的，内心也非常的骄傲强大。如果对考分有争议，他们说的最多的一句话就是：这对我不公平。其实，几乎对任何有争议的事情，学生说的最多的都是：这对我不公平。美国学生对自己的权利维护得非常好。做老师的，最重要就是要一碗水端平。对自己心爱和不心爱的学生都要完全一致。比如有个好的实习机会，做老师的就要对全班所有人宣布这个机会，让大家公平竞争，而不是把机会留给自己喜欢的学生。

大学教授再不懂如何教学的，也深知一句鼓励学生提问的很管用的口头禅：没有愚蠢的问题……换句话说，无论学生的提问有多么愚蠢，做老师的一样要耐心解释。并且不能丝毫流露出对学生智商的怀疑。我上过一个给教师开的教学学习班。在班上传道的老教授被问到：如果学生问了一个刚刚解释过的问题该怎么办？老教授说：那就再解释一遍！无论多么有个性的教授，我也从来没有见过敢于当众出言羞辱或者打击学生的。最多拿学生开个无伤大雅，也不伤心情的玩笑。对于叛逆的学生，只要他不触犯校规，完全是听之任之。既没有班长来以身作则，也没有班主任的循循善诱，甚至根本没有班级一说。学生的“思想政治工作”是开了一个大大的天窗。

大学教育从来都不是双人舞。学生和教授的流利配合固然重要。但是学生自信不自信，从容不从容，很大程度上和整个社会如何要求和对待他们相关。美国的个人主义不但在校园盛行，在社会的各个地方都很走俏。在培植个性的同时，不让“个性”伤人的办法之一就是对他人的尊重。所以美国学生在展示他们亮丽的个性尾巴的时候也同时被要求考虑他人的感受。

We spend the first twelve months of our children's lives teaching them to walk and talk and the next twelve telling them to sit down and shut up. - Phyllis Diller

2010-04-18T14:30:00.002+08:00

Yes. As you can see, I'm back to blogging in English. Because my chinese speech competitions are over. Like finally.

And, to sum up my life so far, one word: FAIL.

Damn stressed recently. My usual optimism about life has totally atrophied, since life itself is pretty pessimistic itself, with the whole point about going AGAINST YOUR WISHES.

So... eh, my chemistry, 18/30. Lousy right, well it's like the top few in class. So the problem is not internal, but external. I'm now pretty immune to all types of psychological blows, so whatever, fail or not, I seriously don't give a damn.

And, the only good thing about life so far is that yesterday, I went to Bugis with Kaixin, Jennifer, Guo Li and Zi Ren after my dances. And there was supposed to be one hot guy.... supposedly. Eh but he didn't show up since he lost his wallet and phone. SAD LIFE. And Jennifer was totally heartbroken, very funny. But on a side note, the whole meetup was a failure too. Since some had to leave early, some have curfew, so in the end we went to the arcade. LOL. Then left me, Guo Li and Kaixin. We went to crash Guo Li's juniors' table at Starbucks and it was quite boring. They made me do a dare by standing on the chair and shouting "I'm a superwoman". That was lame, really. But I still did it la, to a give a good impression. =="

I think I need to read up on China's geography and the cultures of the different provinces since much of the times I really can't relate to the conversations. Argh. That's the suckiest part about my life, oscillating between two extremes, English and Chinese. Yes, life sucks.

I'm gonna bathe. Then calm myself down and dive back into the siren song of my shit life.

Reading Mark Twain's humorous selections recently. Finished Tuesdays with Morrie. Quite touching. Learnt about life but the book had little effects on brightening up my perspectives. Evidently.

Ciao suckers.

Until I was 13, I thought my name was 'Shut Up.' - Joe Namath

震撼

2010-04-13T20:40:00.003+08:00

终于理解到读书破万卷的重要性。

今天是来报告一下赛程的。当然，没有赢，肯定的。不过也算是输得心服口服啦。第一名是国初的，太厉害了，佩服得五体投地，比姜沛村还牛逼。说起话来都套上诗句古文的，博览群书。佩服佩服。连评判听得都啧啧称奇。然后第二名是个女生，对她的印象不怎么深刻啦，不过人家还是厉害。主要说的是，第三名是咱们的王梓人同学！！！！*鼓掌鼓掌*呵呵，我都为他高兴。毕竟已是第二次参加比赛了，不赢就太没面子了。哈哈。

这次比赛中学到了很多很多。发现每次演讲比赛都获益匪浅。上一次双语的让我对自己更加的有自信了。现在让我发现到读书的重要性了。呵呵。等车的时候和首席评判聊了聊。她说我的演讲底子是有的，主要是欠缺内容和层次。这个我也赞同。所以，一定得多啃书。

再来，就是考试成绩。说实话，到现在拿回了三样。一点都不满意。数学M1没问题，可是M2才刚及格，10/20，本来还不及格的。太粗心了，不是不会做。地理专题，9.5/14，比年级平均分高一点点，但是对于我来说，实在羞于见人。这个，以后不可以再从网上一个字一个字地搬到报告里，自己要多思想。然后，最糟糕的是华语。他妈的才考了77.5/110。还好是个3.6，不然得写遗书了。其实全部分数丢在数字填写上面，很郁闷，答案都很相近的，其实一点儿都考不出水平来。然后就是那个文章缩写，才得11/20，太亏了。还没来得及检查答案呢，根本求不到分。像王国力说的，实在太不应该了。郁闷。没办法啦。多读书呗。

那个高尔基还是谁说的，错过太阳流了泪，就会错过群星和月亮。所以，要往前看，再接再厉咯。

还有就是，陈老师说五月多有个《汉语桥》本地人的演讲比赛，好像还能代表新加坡参加国际比赛之类的。当然没想那么远，但是这个比赛不可以错过。一定是个很好的机会呢！一定争取！

然后就是，这个周末去吃饭~！耶~~！

走了。复习生物了。

买盘看去，买一张正版的、买一张盗版的，快进看一张、快退看一张。- 郭德纲

危机

2010-04-10T20:12:00.004+08:00

今天才去《汉语桥》看演讲比赛。特别厉害。尤其是NJC的那个，还有华中，德明，当然还有我们学校的代表啦~

怎么说呢，里面也有参加YMCA的，而且都是厉害的。所以严重危机感顿时把我笼罩。回家路上一直特别彷徨，不知怎么办。老是想，万一赢不了怎么办，连汉语桥的代表都赢了，如果自己不赢不是下不了台？当然，背稿肯定没问题，主要是即席，什么名言古文都很有限。。。惨。。。不过就走一步算一步吧。。。不想多想了。

嗯。明天要去ACSI看国力的“抗色”。哈哈。这个词蛮艺术的。跟凯欣和她的jennifer去。然后可以看到timothy,蛮兴奋的，好久没有见到拉丁马士的学长了。

ok,现在心里平静下来了。要去洗澡，然后看书了。

突然发现。。。。好久没有打篮球了。。。。原来时间真的可以冲淡一切呢。以前看到我校的篮球队就憎恨无比，一看到那个老师就恶心，一看到他们在场上潇洒地打球而我却带着一个沉重的破球拍我就烦。RONDO被选为ALL STAR了。GARNETT被罚款了。PIERCE受伤了。这些我都错过了。呵呵，现在已经没感觉了。一切都随着轨道延伸。但是篮球永远还是心中的一部分。好想再看看NBA。今年finals一定不可以错过~

拜了。

唾沫是用来数钞票的，而不是用来讲道理的

宁愿一辈子不出国

2010-04-07T23:06:00.002+08:00

才看了一个朋友的空间回来。感触蛮深的。

也不想多说指明到底是什么内容，因为毕竟蛮敏感的。昔日的伤口还是让它随着时间渐渐愈合，如今也不要在触动了，不然可能会被疼痛有一次惊醒。反正讲来讲去，真正了解我的人也会知道我对什么最敏感啦。其实世上只有两个人了解，一个是根本不知道这个网址的存在，另一个可能也搞不清楚到底是什么，因为毕竟时间久了，距离会逐渐拉远。

可能这就是现实的残酷无情吧，可能也是它的公正吧。事情总会有它的利与弊，不可能十全十美。

和许多朋友比比较起来，我知道我是幸福的。小小年龄就能出国，躲过国内的中考高考，并得到精通双语的机会。可是，有多少人知道这后面的心酸。表面上是平静融洽的，但是背后真正发生了什么，又有谁能真正看透。虽然说国内压力庞大，但是至少最根本的条件还是有的，当然这个条件我就不多说了。如果仔细观察，会发现到，出来的都不容易。

许多人说我疯狂，直率，我行我素，无忧无虑。但只有自己知道，那只是逃避和遮掩。

读了他的空间，说不上是惋惜还是无奈。可能就是一种羡慕吧。如果说让我在两者之间选一样，我宁愿永远出不了国，都要死死地把握那份温馨。当然一切已定型。只能但愿一切的一切会好起来的。

2010-04-04T20:59:00.003+08:00

唉。。。又得用华文写了。真是的。比赛之前纯华文。。。

这个周末耍得挺疯的。星期六去了bugis的金筷子吃火锅。和梓人，国力，宇光和凯欣。好吃。。。呵呵。我发现男孩都好变态==然后去唱KTV。走音走死了。一定要多练！皇天不负苦心人，就算天生走音，也能练出来的！！！发现国力超会唱的，坐在他旁边很有压力，很自卑啊~梓人唱起歌来不是人，太high了。

今天去ajisen庆祝凯欣的生日！哈哈。很好玩，认识了很多朋友。撑死我了。过后去东海岸照相。。。哇，风景很漂亮。

写报告了。拜了~

膜拜歌坛之主

火锅

你是怎么来到这个世界的？你爸看起来也不像那种人啊。

2010-03-29T21:47:00.003+08:00

嗯。今天考了英文，历史和化学。大家都在抱怨因为这些科目排在一起但是全部都是那种必须死记硬背的，所以很难应付。我觉得还可以啦，影响不大，胸有成竹，哈哈哈哈哈。== 三科考得都不错，就要看成绩如何了。历史考得十分满意，还是头一次，一直以来我的历史都是尾巴儿。化学也很好，这个。。。。一直以来都不及格的，这次我很有信心至少能那个3.6。英文，一般啦。经过一个周末的狂背，总算没有付之东流。

额，这个星期超空闲。不过肯定是要呆在家里读书准备即席，他妈的，这个比赛害死我了。然后就是复习地理和生物，最后两门。然后星期天去凯欣的生日派对。。。。额，都不认识她的那些朋友。。。郁闷。不过管他的，还有一个认识的朋友一起去，应该不会那么尴尬啦。不过经过多年的经验，这些娃儿很有可能会临时不去，那我可糟透了。

格老子的，练地板把我肩膀给弄坏了，痛死。不过，值得的~~~~~~！终于可以做shoulder freeze了。

好耶~~~我走了。

要不是打不过你，我早跟你翻脸了。- 郭德纲

妮子！

2010-03-24T21:39:00.002+08:00

演讲初赛结束，不错。当然进了决赛。其实呢。。。参赛者大多数还是蛮友善啦，应该是我自己太冲动太肤浅。还叫了几个朋友。嘿嘿。还有IB的，这个可是资料来源口啊。真的好想进IB。决赛的稿还没开始写，太忙了。

再来就是考试。法语考得一塌糊涂。不是那么失望啦，反正自己尽力了，加个问号。作文考得一级棒，就是听力和一些理解。管他的。今天考了社会学，好样的。数学，无语，8分题把我杀得个片甲不留。华语，鸡爪爪。

累死。RS严重落后。今天就在赶。妈的。学校虐待学生。

不给结束语了，没时间。恶~

赢！！

2010-03-17T17:01:00.003+08:00

昨天才去了那个演讲的讲座。蛮震撼的。

只有一句话，参赛者们好不正规啊，代表学校的还穿得那么。。。。花枝招展。而且百分之九十都是地地道道的中国人。郁闷。不过向沛村说的，会写不一定会说，会说不一定会演讲。嗯。

有些女的看去来就反感，我怎么能输给这种人呢？在怎么的，也必须进决赛！

这个假期，大多数时间都花在大量阅读论说文，为即席准备。临时抱佛脚，但一向不信佛的，不知抱了有没有用。呵呵。

最近我什么都要用中文，好逼自己更加融入“华文气氛”。哎呀，这个比赛让我头大啊。

刚才看了百家论坛，讲大唐初期，什么什么除隋乱创国基。然后讲那个李世民和李建成的玄武门之斗，残忍。不过唐太宗蛮厉害的。看来看一些这些论坛还是很有趣。一定要多看这些有利的东西，少玩游戏。

啊~~宓如开窍了。

还有，junya接受了我的myspace邀请！哇哈~乐死我了。根本没想到。我只是跟他在邀请栏中说了“i really like your style of dancing, keep on dancing!" 然后他就接受了我这个陌生人的邀请！有些时候觉得我这个人蛮荒唐的。其实做事就应该赫烈烈，管他那么多。

啊！！！！！！！开心啊～～～～～

时间就像乳沟一样，挤一挤还是有的。- 无名

ps: 我有找到了好多junya的照片和录像。。。啊，这种病态崇拜好久才消啊。。哈哈

BOYS IN THE HOUSE YO!

2010-03-14T14:15:00.025+08:00

Soooo. today marks the beginning of March Holidays. And, wow, it doesn't feel like the holidays at all, because i've got 2 full-pages of homework from my diary to do. WOW. What interesting holidays......

Anyway, yesterday was the most awesome day of 2010 so far! WOOTS! Joey and I went to ZOUK for RADIKAL FORZE JAM 2010! HOW AWESOME IS THAT HUH! And it was my very first time to actually step into ZOUK, actually, it's my first time to see ZOUK the building itself. Average on the outside, but WAY TOO COOL IN THE INSIDE! WAHAHA!

Ok, now to the important part, there were so many HOT GUYS. I mean, c'mon, Bboyers all have 8 packs la, now it seems to be a normal thing to have packs. But a lot of them are so short, probably because Bboy stunts their growth. But, of course there were real hot guys. OMG, i'm totally infatuated with Junya Hirano! He's SO BLOODY COOL. And he's got this weird (unique?) style of breaking. Ah.... he's so hot.

And I saw FIRST AND LAST CREW FROM JAPAN WITH KATSU!! AH. WAHA. TA! HA! ok. chill.

Yes, and it was the first time i actually watched any mass-cypher live. So cool.

Really a huge thanks to JOEY for bringing me there!

I'm totally inspired to dance harder, faster, stronger. He-he. Must find a time to go locking before Friday~!

NINETY-NINE FLAVA!

look at his wrists!

China VS Taiwan, hell with politics!

The aussie from First And Last.

That's one hell of a move man. Roy? Dunno.

Freeze.

WooOOoo

Elbow Freeze!

Cyphering

MY JUNYA! His hair is so cool!

MY JUNYA AGAIN!

99 Flava Thailand!

99 Flava going on 100.

Tiny thing from First and Last doing windmill!

Ugh. 99 Flava in the house again.

First And Last as Champions followed by 99 Flava!

Next, I went searching for Junya's photos... ==" I mean, I can't stop being me right:

Right.
Centre Front.
Left.
Front Right.

Those who dance are considered insane by those who cannot hear the music. - George Carlin

嘿，我要走了！

2010-03-08T19:45:00.004+08:00

“Man can preserve a vestige of spiritual freedom, of independence of mind, even in such terrible conditions of psychic and physical distress.” - Viktor Frankl

Hmmm.... after around 3 weeks of emotional torture......

I HEREBY DECLARE I WILL NO LONGER BE AN INMATE OF EMOTIONS AND WILL NOT SUCCUMB TO PRISON MENTALITY.

I WILL TRIUMPH SPIRITUALLY AND BE SOMEONE BETTER, DIFFERENT! MUAHHAHAHA!

OUT OF THE BARBED WIRE OF LIFE, I WILL OBTAIN SPIRITUAL FREEDOM.

And lastly, maybe you have no idea what the hell you've done wrong, BUT I POINT MY MIDDLE FIGNER AT YOU!

Goodbye and good riddance!

最后，送你他妈一首歌（哦，不要误会，没有意思。只是其中一行很有感觉）:

轻轻闭上眼睛此刻我觉得清醒
已经不需要一些挽留字句
这绚烂新世纪深情已不受欢迎

爱你那么用力却好像一场闹剧
嘿我要走了
昨天的对白已不再重要
我已见过最美的一幕
只是在此刻
都要结束
都要结束

好了，我要好好享受享受去，痛痛快快沉浸在作业的怀抱中~！操，你两天里浪费了我44个小时。

Of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most. - Mark Twain

can't wait to see you

2010-03-06T21:21:00.008+08:00

好雷人的造型

ARGH.

Hurt my shoulder VERY BADLY during Bboy. Can't do shoulder freeze, think I am too bony. Sheesh.

Geography AA to mug.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RGS and shawna was being so hypocritical. HAHA. Watched 全城热恋 with Andrea and Deenie. I was fangirling over 谢霆锋, 吴彦祖 and 井柏然 (sadly not 张学友). They were SO CUTE! Ya, best movie so far for this year. I feel like rewatching it again AFTER finishing my Geog AA. Ahhhh I love the plot.

Ya, bye.

By working faithfully eight hours a day, you may get to be a boss and work twelve hours a day. - Robert Frost

一家之计在于和

2010-02-27T23:04:00.002+08:00

首先先声明，里头不会提到任何人的名字，再而没有攻击任何人的意思，我只是想把事情的来龙去脉仔细回顾及整理一下。

第一件事，我觉得随着年龄的增长，烦恼就接踵而至，突然间觉得世界好像变得那么的复杂那么的深奥。表面上人跟人的交往也不再纯粹是泛泛而谈，每个人都不知道每个人葫芦里卖的啥子药，每一个交流都变成了一种达成一层接着一层阴谋和企图的工具。现在说话都必须谨慎小心，因为你完全不晓得对方会如何理解你的话语。然而，这种现象也是不可避免的，入世不深的人可以把其叫为虚伪，但是较有涉世经验和了解的人会把其叫为社交技巧。如果你用极为天真的态度来看待所有的人事物，那么在尽头等待你的将是失望和怃然。现在出事必须先把事情的外壳一层一层剥掉，然后仔细端详核心才可做判断。如果说以前的社会像颗葡萄，那么如今的将是一粒柚子，又厚又结实。

第二件事情呢，用客观的角度来谈论还蛮难的。坦白一句，出来了就要放得开，如果脑子里一直抱着以前的那一套观念，那么如何接受新知识呢？不要那两样毫无关系的事件来作比较，因为各有千秋。不可以说哪个比哪个“瓜”，哪个没哪个得行，因为毕竟背景不同，不可同台比较。如果在这儿呆久了，会发现，其实这儿也相当不错，如果放眼四周，会发现外国也不赖，没有国内差没有国内好，两界平起平坐。

其次，便是自己的问题了。这件事一直让我很烦恼。不可一称自己是留学生，不可以称自己是中国人，也不可以称自己是新加坡人，那么自己归属为何处？记得小的时候，我带着上述的态度对待事情，许多人会逗我玩儿，问：“你喜欢中国还是这里呢？”然后我会傻乎乎的说，“当然是中国噻！”话音刚落，对方的脸色马上转变，这也是可理解的。现在回首往事，想起来都好笑。如果你再这样问我，我会说：“两个都喜欢，两个都有着不同的喜欢。”中国是祖国，自然不能忘根，如果没有中国就没有我，但是对于新加坡，大多是原至感激之情，如果没有新加坡就没现在的我。当然，看着周围名副其实的留学生，我也会有一种羡慕的眼光。很多时候我会想，如果当时没有加入新加坡公民，我也会和他们站在同一个立场上，记得今年春晚，表演者说了一句“祝全球留学生新年快乐！”，紧接着妈妈就说：“这是对你们三个说的！”（那是有我和另外3个留学生）。心里就有点不是滋味，也不知道为什么。许多时候，当别人说中国的不是时，我也会脸色铁青，但是，如果如果反驳，那么对方肯定会说：“你那么爱中国怎么又加入别国公民？”而我最后就落得狼狈不堪。现在反思，觉得，没有一个人有义务只束缚于一个国家，如今的时代，人口全球化流动是很正常的，任何国际的公民都不重要，因为拿了个护照只是图方便，关键的是你要正确的认识到你自己忠于哪里。这对于我们这些“不三不四”的人而论，极为重要，因为只有这种意识，我们的人生才不会永无归宿。

而我可以斩钉截铁地说，我热爱中国，也热爱新加坡。你不可以说我虚伪，因为这是两种不通的爱。

HOMEWORK

2010-02-27T17:52:00.003+08:00

Yo.

Ya, basically the title says all. CIAO.

Haha, no la. I'm here to update on - nothing basically. Eh, SAP stressed, YMCA stressed, French stressed, different subjects stressed, English stressed (I heard IB DSA has a strong emphasis on language...damn), popping stressed. Ya, FML totally.

Ok, next, in addition to my sad life, my printer decided to flabbergast me by taking a leave, ya baiscally it broke down when I needed it the most. And I can't use Lingling's printer because her laptop crashed (congrats to her) and my laptop can't link up with her printer. Well done, my life sucked to its best.

Off to do french, adieu.

Beauty isn't worth thinking about; what's important is your mind. You don't want a fifty-dollar haircut on a fifty-cent head. - Garrison Keillor

2010-02-19T22:16:00.002+08:00

WASSUP GUYS.

Ok, I AM GONNA TAKE IB IF I CAN GET IN. hopefully i can.

Mmm, life's being really sucky as usual. SAP got this whole chunk of work piling.

And there's the YMCA Chinese Speech Competition, (I know you guys will be saying "again!?"). And apparently the level of difficulty has spurt up a lot. And there's impromptu for every level so I am dead la.

Erm, locking is cool. Going Bboy tomorrow. Better go practise my baby freeze.

Eh, ya my life sucks.

CIAO.

I like work: it fascinates me. I can sit and look at it for hours - Jerome K Jerome

2010-02-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

最近真他妈的烦躁。好多作业和课题。要疯了。很忙，都一个星期多没更新了。晕。今天肚子痛得没去上学。唉。

命苦。

这种生活节奏什么时候能放慢啊？谁说中国学生命苦，我看这儿的也好不到哪儿去。

妈的。

做梦都可以做到写作业。昨天梦见自己赶作业赶到凌晨3点才上床，然后一眨眼外婆又叫我起床了，所以整个晚上就等于没睡似的。我操。

睡了。拜。

Burst your bubble

2010-02-09T20:52:00.003+08:00

Unadulterated chagrin completely.

Today I got FIFTH in the bilingual competition. SIAN.

How I wished there was some individual awards, ok la, I knew my partner tried her best, just my luck. But the champion was definitely not good enough please, which is why I am quite pissed. And I feel this unsolicited pity for the Dunman person, she was REALLY GOOD.

Oh well, I still have my cert, trophy, and most importantly, HUNDRED TWENTY BUCKS IN CASH.

Made lots of new friends. We're going to eat out on Monday. Yay. Seriously, I didn't know native Singaporeans can speak such commendable standards of chinese. IMPRESSED.

Darling Partner! Only 12 years old!

Xinyuan, me, Wang Shuai

Back to mugging. I think I'm really becoming a nerd. YAY.

He who laughs last probably didn't get the joke. - Anonymous

2010-02-07T14:12:00.002+08:00

Got into finals. DUH, but the difference in levels is very huge, but can't really let my guard down la. Going for ice breaking tomorrow, can pon school.

Chalet was ok. THANKS JOLYNN AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY. everyone was talking about boyfriends so i kinda fell asleep. LOL.

Breakdancing was THE BOMB. it was really BREAKdancing. so lucky i haven't break a bone yet. but i bruised my head, knees, shoulders, elbows and feet. HAHA, worth it la. I KNOW HOW TO FREEZE AND DO BABY FACE! WAHAHAHA! locking was awesome too, but my fingers will end up swelling at the end because i shook too much.

tired. don't feel like typing too cheem. i need to sleep~~~ but have so much homework. BYE!

Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way when you criticize them, you are a mile away from them and you have their shoes. - Jack Handey

2010-01-30T12:02:00.003+08:00

Yoz.

Nothing much happened. Ok, quite a lot actually but I'm just too busy to update because MY FREAKING COMPUTER IS SPOILED.

Anyway, bilingual competition, me and Zhao Chong from Sec 3, but we're the same year. YAY. Ya, went Montfort. BLEAH. The whole process was so unprofessional. We talk only in front of the judges, and that gets me wondering if it's an oral test or a oratical competition. And the stupid noobs outside were so noisy I almost forgot my script.

Then. LOCKING! Nice. Chunky was cool. Went with Caethrin and Andrea. Signing up for Bboy with Joey. Eh.... ya, later going out to dance somemore.

SAP was cool.

Ok, basically everything's cool so far la.

Ok, lots of work waiting. NOT COOL.

The early bird gets the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese. - Anonymous

let us be bread

2010-01-21T20:16:00.003+08:00

Today the SAP gang went to SJI for some art tour. It was quite cool, we saw some work of very fine standards, especially the "7 sins" one, which I totally fell in love with. Was so sublime. Anyway, we went to the art room and saw the boys "preoccupied" with their drawings, which was probably just a show put on for us guests. They were so concentrated and quiet, which is damn fake because when I enter the art room from another room, I saw them throwing pencils and obviously when they saw me they immediately went back to their drawing, or rather, their acting.

FAIL.

Crystal and I randomly started guffawing at the phrase "Let us be bread" on the wall in front of this whole bunch of badminton guys. Thinking back, the phrase wasn't even funny la. That moment we forgot about embarrassment though. And when we passed the fencing hallway above us, the stupid lower secondary boys were calling "hello girls hellos girls look here woohoo!"

CHILDISH.

Anyway, GOOD NEWS.

I GOT SELECTED TO PARTICIPATE IN THE BILINGUAL COMPETITION, which isn't very bilingual since we only need to speak in chinese. WTH. Hah, I've gotten my script already, though it's kinda... sick? But it's on plastic surgeries, can't help it!

Right, byebye. Off to draw my art. Ok, the photo doesn't do justice to my drawing. Whatever.

Lead me not into temptation; I can find the way myself. - Rita Mae Brown

spittle and snot

2010-01-17T12:37:00.005+08:00

GAH GAH GAH I AM SICK WITH A BAD SORE THROAT!!!!!!

Snot in the nose and knot in the chest, so uncomfortable. Actually today I'm supposed to go out with mama for some reunion but then with this.... sigh. Oh, below is a photo of all my painstakingly collected snot.

Anyway, now I really love snapping away with my Canon, I call my camera CARRIE THE QUEEN ANT. I've no idea why, but it's just cool.

Oh, yesterday I went for hiphop open class with Andrea and Yingxin and Joey and her bunch of friends. Anyway, after such a long hiatus, my whole body got rigid. It was so nice to start dancing again!! Song: Loose Wires.

Anyway, Joey dragged me to popping open class after that, which was ..... a process with much consternation at first. Because I was so scared and unsure of my ability to catch up with the class. Somemore when I first stepped into the studio, it was like WOW ALL GUYS. And not just that, WOW ALL HOT GUYS. And perhaps, WOW ALL HOT AND COOL AND TALL AND PRO GUYS!!!! Except Ben though haha. A bit the blubberish.

AHHHHHHHHH.

Was such an enjoyment. No, maybe not hot, but they are real damn pro at popping. And the guy in front of me has SUCH A COOL HAIRDO! OMG, I just kept oogling at his hair. And then there's this guy, quite a snob, who wore his "Japan POPPING finals top 15" shirt. And I was like, OMG better not mess with this guy. Then there's two freaking cool guys, one of them being quite hot, they were so bloody pro! They kept popping la please, quite a show-off. But seriously, the lesson was one filled with amazement and awe. Song: Hornz!!

And surprisingly, we were NOT THE WORST. And instead, I was quite satisfied with my performance. Even more than with hiphop please. Maybe I'll go again next week, and grace my eyes. When I told Lingtangtang, she yelped and wanted to come along.... LOL.

Then, later at night, mama's friends came over from China and everybody had steamboat. Was alright. And then the adults talked about China's promising future, which is of course an undeniable fact. Aw so proud to be a chinese. And the children basically just stoned.

Then today i finished reading The Kite Runner.

SO TOUCHING.

"For you a thousand times over"

The book basically threw me back into the harsh reality of the world, which I have been sleepwalking through for the past few years. And it portrayed both unadulterated greatness and cowardice, and also the painful process of redemption. Although Amir was such a jerk at first, but then at the end he was really quite a respectable person. And I like the way the author bestowed each character a story of his own, like the General and Baba, both in pursuit of honor; Hassan and his unwavering loyalty to Amir; Amir's naked fear and guilt and of course, Sohrab's silent surrender to life.

Wah, I actually cried ok, it was really cathartic la.

When I was born I was so surprised I didn't talk for a year and a half - Gracie Allen

Eating Bread Has Never been so artistic

2010-01-11T22:05:00.008+08:00

Concept of my 2010 SAP course work.

There is supposed to be a gradual transformation from a human into a pig. But I'm just here to share the retarded photos of my mum.

Hope she doesn't mind.

Anyway it was a miracle for her to accept the task of being my model. She starved herself for dinner just so as to save some appetite for this bread you know! But this is a trial version. Next time she is going to stuff hamburgers into her mouth.

HAHA.

I KNOW YOU ARE JEALOUS OF MY PICTURES!

Erm, anyway, here's some serious issues to blog on.

There's a Singapore-China Bilingual Competition coming up at the end of this month which gets my heart palpitating like some jackhammer. I don't know why I get so excited over this dumb competition, probably because of the high chance of getting a trophy as mentioned in the paper. Ya, actually I am interested in such competitions only because of the trophies and not because of winning. =="

But tomorrow's the selections for this competition and ARR GEE ASS is supposed to choose 2 out of 5. And I think all the people are quite pro.

BUT I AM DEFINITELY GETTING IN NO MATTER WHAT BECAUSE I WANT MY TROPHY.

A man explained inflation to his wife thus: "When we married, you measured 36-24-36. Now you're 42-42-42. There's more of you, but you are not worth as much." - Lord Barnett

Peektures

2010-01-10T15:45:00.006+08:00

HOOLALALLUP!

Omgomg, I owe my mama $1000 now. I have to slog like a horse for 5 months to pay debts! Hia hia hia. But it's worth it, because yesterday we spent around $1400 on a ......

CANON EOS 500D CAMERA.

Hoot hoot. And it exceeded our budget by such a phenomenal amount since the budget was her remuneration of a petty $400, which i ignorantly thought was enough to buy a professional camera. Who knows, we've got to buy the camera, the flash and some protective shit.

SO EXPENSIVE.

Oh well, in the long run ... some look up, some look down, some look forward, some look backward, but we look beyond, because we are visionaries, as said by Linus in The Airman. Muahahaha.

Just went to play tennis with Lingtangtang. ==" She took up tennis in China, but not as if very pro leh. After one intensive hour, my skills almost match up with hers man. Ok la, still a bit the lousy for me.

We brought 2 balls. She hit one over the fence and into some machine shed while I hit the other one into the swimming pool below. LOL.

We suck to the max.

But in the end we still got back both la, thanks to my superb tracking skills. LOL.

Gotta go. Au revoir.

Awesome. Testing out my camera.

Middle age is when your age starts to show around your middle - Bob Hope

Oh My God

2010-01-07T20:34:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD.

School pressure is seriously charging right into my face at full blast. So tedious and tiring. This week I've been keeping up to standards by reading handouts before lessons and listening in class in rapt attention, no matter how boring it is, like.... Chemistry? I'm going to self study that hopeless subject and not flunk it like last year.

Ok, this year, my pressure, especially ME, because nobody else is taking so much stuff as me, is very great. I'm taking 3 O levels: French, Art, Chinese. All 3 subjects are those that I take lots of pride in so I cannot afford to flunk any, which means I have to get all A1s.

Oh, we had class division for HMT. LOL. I got into class C, which is like the top rank and apparently our class is full of scholars with only less than 30 students. So I'll just go there and book the last-in-class position. I bet everyone will be talking in idioms and whatever bombastic expressions from all the lame historic poems. And I'll be there stoning and staring quizzically back at them. Oh, our teacher is Mrs Mu. Question marks????

Gotta go. Sing my JAY CHOU songs then continue with my chemistry WS. BYE!

Oh, this year, I'm nuts. So far, during ALL MY FREETIME, I've been reading and taking down notes. That is to say, on the bus, on the mrt, during free block and even during lunch.

YAY. NERDS ARE COOL. For sec 4 only.

It's a recession when your neighbour loses his job: it's a depression when you lose yours - Harry S. Truman

Avatar

2010-01-05T17:12:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I went to watch Avatar with Lingtangtang at Vivo after making ducklings at school. Was fun, but gruesome experience, making the badges was damn tiring.

Totally fagged out.

Anyway, Avatar was FANTASTIC.

The themes were pretty new to me and unheard of, given the underexposed me. Mainly the themes touched on humanity and deforestation, such an exciting film with such common and mundane themes, especially deforestation. WTF.

I think the film reflects what is exactly happening in modern times: deforestation and depletion of resources, driven by humans' perpetual and insatiable greed, blinded by the lack of prudence and foresight.

Aiya, basically we learnt it in Geography and Biology la, what crappy deforestation stuff endangering the habitats and dispersing tribal communities bla bla bla, we did that for Biology PT last year lol.

I find the juxtaposition of artificialness and nature was COOL with all the machines bombarding the trees. Sadist.

There was a more subtle lick on humanity I think. It was quite touching when Grace and Jake got unplugged and their avatars fell into slumber during the escape from the forest. The blue creatures still attempted to drag the senseless avatars to safety, unwitting to the betrayal playing in the background. That was saddening.

A stark contrast between innocence of the natives verging on ignorance and evil complicity from the humans. Which was realistic.

But what was weird was when the blue creature was kissing Jake in his human form, kind of disturbing, like the controversial about Wall-E and that white robot thingy. Love between two kinds. Ew.

Gotta go, going to get a new pencil case if I can find one.

Uh, school was fine today. Form teacher is DOCTOR Chiam. Wow. CLE is Mr Lee. Yay. I'm sitting at the front row near the centre beside Kinnari, the mugger, who will hopefully influence me to mug like shit this year. I need a GPA 3.8 BADLY.

Ok, bubbye.

Behind every successful man is a surprised woman. - Maryon Pearson

Oranges!!

2010-01-03T22:26:00.007+08:00

I LEARNT HOW TO PEEL AN ORANGE WITH A KNIFE.

AND NOW I AM OBSESSED WITH PEELING ORANGES.

Yippee! Lingtangtang came back to Singapore just 2 days ago. Ok, maybe not such a high thing but still, she brought back a notable amount of food and stuff. Ohhhhh and she brought pens for me!

COLORFUL PENS.

Anyway, her lousy crappy mediocre laptop can't connect to our wireless and so, logically and habitually, Wudi and his dad came over to the rescue. Lol.

But the important thing is, Grams and Wudi taught me how to peel oranges with a knife!

OMG!

Cool shit. I never realised that using a knife to peel oranges is so AWESOME! Of course at first my oranges turned out quite sucky but today, they were pretty~!

Ok, tomorrow going school to make duckling badges. Lol.

When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep -- not screaming, like the passengers in his car. - Anonymous

2010

2009-12-31T23:50:00.000+08:00

2010 coming in 10 minutes!

I hope this post will be able to make it on time!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE and a big THANK YOU to every friend and family member who made my 2009 a meaningful and indelible year. Maybe not known to many of you, but for me, 2009 is a HUGE turning point for me in my life, because of 313 and because of all the things that happened in 313.

And the incoming 2010 will add a new chapter to the ebbs and flows of our lives and I wish all of us will be able to smoothly overcome the vicissitudes awaiting in 2010.

OKAY, GOODBYE!

OMG it's 12!

刺陵个屁

2009-12-31T16:14:00.000+08:00

唉。昨天和可可去Tiong Bahru 看刺陵(给你鬼片子一个大便的颜色）去了。

我们两个白痴，原以为刺陵很精彩很好看，跑老远去JurongPoint 买票，买不到又嘿唑嘿唑跑去Tiong Bahru，竟然浪费了至少两元路费。晕。然后结果买了张晚上7点的票，害我们在那个小商场浪费了3个小时。

真是霉了。

结果辛辛苦苦等到那部电影呢，又没想像中的那么好。真是tmd浪费钱。剧情没有清晰反映盗墓的精彩和刺激，人物描写也特别肤浅，片中又没得太多高潮起伏，十分平淡，主体也不怎么鲜明。一种形容：歪不拉叽的。而且里头周杰伦又发福了，哎哟喂，看得我心头酸溜酸溜的，完全跟帅气粘不上边嘛！！！

这叫做“轮廓”

这叫做“一坨肉”

还是凌汤汤说的对，不值得去影院看，最多就在晚上睡不著的时候看一下来催眠。

看完后一回家就去周杰伦博客大骂。而且越骂越起劲，亏我们还是杰迷，哈哈！暴笑！

Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film. - Anonymous

Nuts' Game

2009-12-29T17:03:00.000+08:00

This game is NUTS. Keke, equally nuts, introduced it to me from her blog. CLICK IMAGE TO PLAY. They said if you can last through 18 seconds, you are a GENIUS. Heh. The US Air Force pilots had to train their reaction speed with this and everybody has to last through 2 minutes. NUTS.

But oh well, I AM A GENIUS. Heh.

Oh yeah, today went to the CIO to get greencard. Was such an EMBARRASSING experience!! WTF. Mama's english is plain horrid sia, she brought me along as a translator and then she didn't listen to me. What the shit man.

But her plans are quite incredulous to have been developed from her pathetic brains. Since the green card can only last if the holder stays in Canada for 2 out of 5 years, and I can only get it in 2011 when I'm in J1, i can waste 2 years taking A levels. In 2013, if I flunk my As, much to my chagrin BUT HIGHLY UNLIKELY I HOPE, I can go back to Canada and sustain my greencard for the following 2 years.

Smart plan. But not sure if workable.

Hope Papa supports not only me, but us, in whatever decisions made.

Argh, frustrating.

It's frustrating when you know all the answers, but nobody bothers to ask you the questions - Anonymous

Flip It

2009-12-28T22:20:00.001+08:00

YEEHA.

New blog, new life, new year. Now i chose a better skin that's easier to match colours, especially with its white background.

Papa just returned to Canada. Back to normal life, nothing saddening since every night he nags at me through MSN. Heehaw.

Tomorrow's gonna be absent from CCAO, can finally skip the embarrassing moments of walking around asking people to visit the booths. Hated it like shit last year. Need to go CIO to apply for Canada greencard.

sheez. CANADA man.

Mama said if i behave well tomorrow i get to buy a personal Nikon camera and the 79 bucks SkullCandy headphone. Shiok man. Easy deal sia. Anyway not her own money, it's from her MOE remuneration thingy.
Woohoo! Lowrider Brown Stripe Cool shit man. Envy me babes.

Gotta sleep. Bubbyes!